Imagine
you wake up one day and suddenly you see that you have become the opposite type
of person. It is not a dream or a nightmare, it is the reality. How would you
feel?
For the
last 11 days, I have been seriously trying to transform myself from a platform
maker to a solo professional. It is not an easy journey, and I have been
struggling a lot. Here in this post, I am going to write about some lessons
that I am learning from this transformational journey.
I know
that there are many people who are in a similar situation like me. They are on
a transformational journey from one type of personality to another. It's not
easy. I'm sharing my experience and some lessons so that it may help you.
Life of a Platform Maker
For the
last 10 years, I tried my best to become a platform maker. I was the president
of an e-commerce association and also an admin of several large Facebook
groups. One of my groups has 3.3 million members. It is one of the largest
groups on online learning.
My
challenge was to involve many people at the same time. Use the strength or
power of Facebook towards the common goal. In the life of a platform maker, I
was always concerned about the success of other people. There was hardly any scope
to think about my own personal development and success.
It’s a Very Rough Beginning
I had to
totally change my thinking pattern and goals. I started to think about my own
personal development, my own success. I have to now think of doing the work that
is related to my improvement.
It's like
taking a U-turn in life and doing everything in the opposite direction. In the
first few days, I could not believe that it was possible for me to just move
towards the opposite direction. I simply cannot think in a totally different
way all of a sudden. It seemed impossible for me. It was a very rough
beginning, no doubt about that.
To Be or Not to Be: The Inner
Conflict
I had a
terrible inner conflict—I simply could not believe that I could be able to
think of my own personal benefit all day. It seemed to be almost impossible and
very difficult and sometimes a heartbreaking idea.
I tried to
think about life and my daily activities from a different perspective. I
started asking myself whether this will bring benefit for me, whether this is
the thing I really want, such things. The most important lesson that I have
learned is that you have to face the inner conflict and you must not give up.
Ambition Is Not Bad
As a
platform maker, I used to think about achieving some goals that would be
beneficial to thousands of people. I created some ideas that touched the lives
of many people not only in my country but in different countries through
Facebook groups. Now I have to think of becoming a successful person, and I
learned that I must have some kind of ambition. Ambition is not bad at all as
long as it doesn't harm any other person.
I have
started to find some positive aspects of being an ambitious person. It helps us
to find our mental peace as well as move forward in life.
I Wanna Grow Old with You
There is a
feeling inside me that I am becoming a new person. I am now just thinking about
my work and how to improve, how to make myself a more skilled professional, how
I can get success or become more successful, etc.
I want to
continue this journey. I want to grow older with this personality or personal
traits. I want to keep moving ahead with this mindset in the coming months and
years.
Face Your Inner Fears
The most
important lesson that I have learned in the last few days in this
transformational journey is that I must face my inner fears regularly. Often, I
feel nervous about the change in my thinking pattern. It is really sometimes
nerve-breaking, and it puts a lot of pressure on my mind. Am I becoming
self-centered? Am I becoming totally selfish? Who am I? I hardly recognize
myself.
Tomorrow Is a New Day
Because of
this inner fear and inner fight, I lose many hours. Sometimes I cannot get
things done, I cannot do my work properly because now whatever I do is related
to my improvement and my personal benefit. In the past, it was just the
opposite. It had nothing to do with my personal benefit.
I try to
tell myself that tomorrow is a new day and it will become better. I will become
more productive, and I will have more peace in my mind.
Trust the Process
I am at a
transitional stage in my life. I am no longer the platform maker, but yet I
could not become the solo professional totally. So there is a lot of conflict,
and I am struggling a lot. There is no problem in admitting this problem.
I know
that anyone who wants to show this kind of transformation where he wants to
become the opposite type of person then it creates a lot of conflict. It's not
that I do not have the necessary knowledge or skill to become a solo
professional. What I am lacking now is the mindset, and it is actually keeping
me from moving forward.
I have to
trust the process and let things move forward in their own style and at their
own pace.
Conclusion
To be
honest, I feel much better after 11 days compared to day one. It's like that I
feel I've changed a bit, and now I can regularly write in my blog, which I
couldn't do before. I am hopeful that within 100 days, the transformation will
be complete, and it will be total.
I am
interested in your journey of transformation. How did you fare in such a
journey?